Wednesday, January 13, 2010

C'est La Vie

This isn't a rant per se. It's more like... me being all mopey because my limited play time is catching up with me. Not like I'm getting worse or anything. I don't think I am. But with the fact that ICC is a real raid, and not a thing you can simply hop in to and get loot, and the fact that I only do one day a week, is really starting to show, it seems. I just feel like I don't bring as much to the table as I could and that the other healers are supporting me. This is compounded by the fact that the only night I really can raid, starts an hour later than every other night, yet still ends at the same time. Not really anyone's fault, but the raids never start on time anyways, and Tues seems to be the alt run. This means... we down one boss and I have a 100 gold repair bill. Again. This is really just me being mopey and writing something down, that hardly anyone reads... except a few guildies, which brings me to my next mopey string of words.

I've been in the guild now for a few months, but I'm still not really making friends like I would have liked to. Maybe it's because a lot of them are already friends irl... I just feel like... I'm there for business and that's it. I want to be there for more than just heals. They could get pugs for that. I don't know... maybe it's just the "bad" run last night that has made me kinda down, but I just feel like it's not getting fun. Once again, though, all this stems from me only being able to raid once a week. It sucks, but c'est la vie.


Anonymous said...

I can attest to the fact that we do not consider you filler for the raid. I can also say that your healing abilities have never been in question, although I can sympathize with feeling rusty. I feel I can't heal worth crap on my priest anymore.

As for the other night, there was one major problem which the officers have discussed and it had absolutely nothing to do with your healing.

So even if you stop raiding with us altogether, we consider you a valued member of the guild and hope you feel the same.

Besides, if nothing else you have to help me tease Amber! :P

Myssidia said...

I don't plan on not raiding =] I'm *going* to participate in beating Arthas. It's my dream. And the only reason I feel like filler sometimes is mostly my fault. I'm not talkative enough mostly. And it doesn't help that I really only have time to play to any worthwhile extent those three hours a week I schedule to raid. Like I said, it just makes me feel like I'm only there for the business. =/ I just wish I was there for more of the run of the mill/non-raid related stuff. It would make me feel better about flai-err... healing stuff that's technically a little too difficult for me.

River said...

Hey it's Frostscourge here. I know how you feel, but sometimes you have to mix it up.

WoW is like a Bar. You have to engage people to get to know them, if not you'll be sitting in the corner by yourself.

Meanwhile I have to examin why my life revolves around drinking ;)