This isn't a rant per se. It's more like... me being all mopey because my limited play time is catching up with me. Not like I'm getting worse or anything. I don't think I am. But with the fact that ICC is a real raid, and not a thing you can simply hop in to and get loot, and the fact that I only do one day a week, is really starting to show, it seems. I just feel like I don't bring as much to the table as I could and that the other healers are supporting me. This is compounded by the fact that the only night I really can raid, starts an hour later than every other night, yet still ends at the same time. Not really anyone's fault, but the raids never start on time anyways, and Tues seems to be the alt run. This means... we down one boss and I have a 100 gold repair bill. Again. This is really just me being mopey and writing something down, that hardly anyone reads... except a few guildies, which brings me to my next mopey string of words.
I've been in the guild now for a few months, but I'm still not really making friends like I would have liked to. Maybe it's because a lot of them are already friends irl... I just feel like... I'm there for business and that's it. I want to be there for more than just heals. They could get pugs for that. I don't know... maybe it's just the "bad" run last night that has made me kinda down, but I just feel like it's not getting fun. Once again, though, all this stems from me only being able to raid once a week. It sucks, but c'est la vie.